I've been reflecting a lot in the past week. The reflection was prompted by an email I received from my ME 4 Life facilitator. She sent an email saying that some people had been in contact with her regarding "wavering of motivation". She asked that we be prepared at our next group (yesterday) to talk about our motivation & benefits of becoming healthier as an exploration on working through a lack of motivation. So, I thought about it. I kept coming back to the same thoughts: I'm not lacking motivation, but on the other hand I'm not feeling all "super-motivated" if that makes sense. I am simply being me. It's very hard to put into words, but I'll try my best. When I first came into the program, I thought that I would be given answers and suddenly would hold the key to weight loss & healthiness.I also thought that once I reached my goal weight, life would be "back to normal". Of course, now I know that there is no "key"-it's all within me. I have also discovered that healthiness is not a destination-it's a journey. And why would I want to go "back to normal" which was the total opposite of where I want my life to be?! I have discovered that not only is "the key" within me, it is different for everyone. What "motivates" me is simply the way I feel. When I work out and eat well, I feel great: lots of energy, happy, and to put simply: the world feels like a better place. When I don't work out and don't eat well, I don't feel as great and I don't have as much energy. Sounds simple, right? It is truly a matter of making choices-choices that will lead me to (LIGHTBULB MOMENT HERE!)...my goal of living a HEALTHY LIFE! One good choice followed by several not so good choices will not put me where I want to be, just as one not so good choice followed by several good choices will not send me back where I started. It is truly about listening to my body-being aware, mindful, consistent, and making choices that will make me feel good. Now, don't get me wrong. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to wake up tomorrow and have 35 lbs be gone, but realistically, I know that isn't going to happen. And it honestly doesn't even matter because I feel great now. And the lessons that I am learning through this journey are priceless.
I met with my nurse this week to go over the labs that I had done last month. My labs & vitals (fasting glucose, cholesterol, HDL, LDL, ratio, heart rate, and blood pressure were all well within normal limits! YAY! We had a nice conversation about where I'm at, how I'm feeling, etc.
Yesterday, I had facilitation which I always look forward to. This new group has changed my life-the room is full of such positive energy and our bond is getting stronger every time we meet.
This morning, I met with my trainer. We talked about where I'm at fitness-wise and we also had a great conversation about listening to my body and being mindful.
At this point, my goal is simply to just continue listening to my body, having fun, feeling good-"keep on keepin' on", if you will. I feel like I'm in a great place and I can honestly say that I look forward to every day. I have a "big" birthday coming up next week and I can honestly say that I feel the healthiest overall that I have ever felt....and I plan on continuing that trend :)
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