Feeling Discouraged.

Saturday night was my FOURTH DOSE OF POISON. This one has been the worst so far and I'm feeling pretty discouraged. The first two doses had me feeling quite a bit of nausea and just feeling "off" and tired. The third I had less nausea, but was definitely more tired and ran a low-grade fever. This round has left me completely exhausted. I'm not feeling much nausea, just really, really tired. I feel like all I have done since Sunday morning is sleep. I woke up Sunday morning and was literally sleeping again within an hour. I slept off & on all day. Monday morning I got up, called in to work, took the girls to daycare and came home and slept all day. I picked them up at 4:30, came home and fed them dinner, and then slept some more. You would think all the sleep during the day would disrupt my sleep at night-NOPE. Still sleeping like a log at night other than waking up to go to the bathroom (I never woke up in the night before except when I was pregnant. Now it's a nightly thing between 1-3 a.m.). With the first three doses, I would start feeling better by Monday afternoon and felt like a rock star the rest of the week. This morning, I woke up and thought I was feeling a bit better, so I got ready to go to work. Half way there, I suddenly felt like I needed to sleep RIGHT THAT MINUTE. I had a couple of meetings so figured I'd try to make it through the day. I'm sick of sleeping, but yet I'm so tired. I'm trying to be patient with myself, I'm taking better care of myself than I have pretty much ever, I'm eating well, I'm taking all of my supplements, I'm juicing, and I'm working out 4-5 times per week. Seriously...I cannot even begin to imagine how I would feel if I wasn't doing any of that. So, yeah, I'm feeling pretty discouraged right now that I have to deal with this for at least two more years. I was really hoping that my body would start adjusting to the medication poison. But, it only seems to be getting worse.

Just needed to vent.