Two to go...

Since my LAST UPDATE, I've completed my fifth and sixth infusions. I go this Friday, and then next Friday (October 18) is my LAST weekly infusion. Honestly, it can't come soon enough.





I'm exhausted all the time, my muscles & joints ache, and my newest side effect? Tremors. Last week, I started to write a grocery list and my hands were shaking uncontrollably and I was unable to write. I thought maybe it was a fluke thing, but it has been happening again this week. Anand stayed home last week because I just did not feel well. I literally slept 12 hours every night, and then took naps all day. This week, he is in Chicago for business so I'm on my own. It hasn't been easy, but I'm doing what I can. Thankfully, the girls are old enough to understand and help. Today, I'm achy and feel feverish and just want to sleep.

I want to feel like ME AGAIN. I keep telling myself just 2 more weeks, but then I wonder how long the medication will remain in my system and worry that I'll start feeling more like myself and it will be time for my monthly infusion (I have at least 4 of those). Then, at the root, I worry that when I am finished with my treatments, will I be in remission or will it come back? I am really trying not to go there because there is nothing I can do about that anyway, but the thought is still there.

So, there is my vent. Two more weeks, two more weeks...



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